I shared my story a couple weeks ago about my journey and my struggle. I wrote my last blog to reach out and change lives. I in no way was looking for sympathy or for recognition. I am simply sharing my story to change lives and to let you know some background for my following blogs. Here is the second part of our journey; our journey into adoption. Deciding on adoption was not the easiest thing Trevor and I have encountered. However with the support of friends and family we know we are not alone.
Cierra's side:
I can remember at 9 years old playing house with a friend in her basement where we frequented quite often. We were best friends and she was a few years older than me. Her basement was set up perfectly for two little girls playing house. It had a play kitchen, a crib, a little table set fully equipped with pots, pans, plates, cups and silverware. She stuck the baby up her shirt, grunted a few times and pulled the baby out from under her shirt and held her close to her body stating that she had finally delivered her baby. I grabbed the other baby doll up off the floor and began to rock her back and forth. She told me that the baby had to be in my belly first I explained that I had adopted her and that she did not come from my belly.
I am not sure that at 9 years old I could have even came close to knowing that as an adult I might not be able to carry a child. However I do know that God was preparing in my life then the most important moments in my life now.
When Trevor and I wanted to start a family three years ago I had remembered praying to God in the car on my way to work early in the mornings. I remember God laying adoption heavily on my heart a year or so after we had been trying to concieve. I was more than excited, I knew this was from God and that this was perfect for me.
I couldn't wait to tell Trevor what had been stirring my heart.
Sitting in a car in the middle of the walmart parking lot I remember telling Trevor that I wanted to adopt (this was in no way my plea to surrender having my own children, but a reasurance that I wanted to adopt regardless) I remember his face and the unsettling silence. He didn't hesitate too long, but instead spilled out the words "I want to have my own children". The words struck through me and hit what felt like my heart. I couldn't breathe. I mean we had been trying for years now and I knew that I might not be able to carry his child. In that moment I felt the lowest I had ever felt. A failure as a wife and a failure to provide what my husband disired the most. I felt inadequate, incapable, broken, any word that might mean something incompacitating in that moment. I set in silence tears flowing down my face but I wasn't finished yet.
Over the next couple months I prayed. I prayed over myself, I prayed over my husband, I prayed over adoption. God kept speaking to me telling me that adoption was my calling and my reply to him was then why was Trevor placed in my life...He doesn't understand, and he doesn't want to adopt. Over the next few months I pressured Trevor and forced statistics into his brain. I pulled up pictures of friends and family who have adopted and tried to show him how amazing it would be, but he didn't budge and the misunderstanding of what God was laying on my heart grew bigger.
I had went to a womens Christmas Tea and the leader at my table had made little cards with insprational sayings or bible quotes, mine read "Be still and know I am God" I knew in my heart that BE STILL is exactly what he wanted me to do. This was in his hands not mine. He knew that I couldn't be the one to put adoption on Trevor's heart. I couln't be in control of this situation. But GOD was... so I was still. I didn't say anything for months, I just prayed.
Trevor's Side:
My name is Trevor Galyon I am 25 years old and originally from Tucson Arizona. My childhood was always filled with new and fun things. My parents were always there to help and support me and my brothers with anything that we wanted to do. I have a twin brother and a brother that is a year older. My poor parents!
About 7 years ago I moved to Republic Mo. My parents had just bought a farm and I wanted to leave Tucson, so I packed up and headed to Missouri. I met my wife Cierra about 6 months after moving to Missouri. The night I met her I knew she was the one. We got married in September 2010. Shortly after getting married we decided that we were ready to be parents. We tried getting pregnant with no result and I waited anxiously as my wife would take a pregnancy test several times a week just for us to see that one pink line - NOT PREGNANT. But I was convinced that we were going to have are own child I didn’t care how long it took. When the time was right it would happen.
Then my wife Cierra came to me and told me that God had placed it on her heart to Adopt. She had mentioned this from time to time but never like this. I was blunt and short with her, I told her that we were going to have children and they were going to be a part of us. I then saw Cierra break, it was like my words had drained the life out of her. But at that time I was selfish and thought that I was right.
As the weeks went by and Cierra stopped talking about adoption I started to pray and ask God for guidance, I knew that it had been placed on Cierra’s heart but I was not sure if it was for me. I then started to realize what I had said about a child being a part of us, and that even if the child is not biologically mine I could give a child a great and loving home life that they may not of had the chance for without me.
The more I prayed the more my heart said yes. I realized that your child can be a part of you without being your biological children. I will love and treat that child as my own. I want so much to see Cierra be a mother and I want to be a father. I want to give a child a loving christian home to grow up in and for Cierra and I to raise a future leader.
** Cierra- On April 3rd driving home Trevor turned to me and said I want to adopt. I don't know where this came from but I was overwelmed. We talked about different options and we attended a couple of informational meetings. We called different agencies and we decided to print out Luthran Family Services adoption application. We are on the road now to adopt and we are praying everyday that the dots connect to find a baby for us.
God's calling for mine and Trevor's life is to have a family, to raise world changers. To teach our children how to show God's grace and to love people. To raise leaders.
God will always provide it just might look differently than what we had in mind. Trevor and I have realized that love is what truley makes a family.
